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Which Kingdom Hearts II Character Are You?
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You scored as Riku



Riku

80%

Axel

70%

Roxas

60%

Olette

60%

Hayner

60%

Kairi

58%

Larxene

58%

Sora

53%

Donald Duck

50%

Namine

45%

Yuffie

43%

Goofy

40%

FFVII lol


Which Final Fantasy VII Character are you like?
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You scored as Sephiroth

You are Sephiroth Son of JENOVA

Sephiroth

80%

Vincent Valentine

75%

Yuffie Kisaragi

73%

Red XIII (Nanaki)

70%

Barret Wallace

68%

Cait Sith

60%

Tifa Lockheart

58%

Cid Highwind

50%

Cloud Strife

48%

Aerith Gainsborough

43%

That last test.



You Are 60% Evil



You are evil, but you haven't yet mastered the dark side.

Fear not though - you are on your way to world domination.

Lolquizsht

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Organized? Huhwhat?

Alright ya salty biscuits, listen up. From now on, when I post, I'll be posting a specific order of things.

1.Rant 'n' Rave Corner -- to get all my pains and frustrations out first to get them over with.
2.Life Status -- Like... say... if I wanted to tell you about the goings-on of my world.
3.Art Shiznit -- ...
4.Misc. Stuffin's --
5.I don't care.

And SO.

Rant 'n' Rave Corner
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SO, as I said in my last deprivation-induced post, I get this heavy, dark cloud suffocating me from time to time, and writing about it helped. For a while.

It's been creeping back up on me so I decided to get this out before it reached catastrophic proportions. (So if dislike angst, gtfo.)

I dunno... Maybe it's because of PMS (which makes me bawl like a fucking baby everytime I watch Kadaj being taken into the Lifestream by his 'mother' like I one day hope to do) or maybe it's because it's now a month before my mom's would-have-been 47th birthday. I don't know, I don't care. But whatever is wrong with me... it hurts. It makes me heavy-hearted and feel more hollow and empty then I already do on a daily basis, makes me seems like another spoiled-emo-brat that only wants attention.

I don't want to become another statistic, but I can't help wonder sometimes...

Hm.

If I just gave up now and went insane, would that make it all better? Probably not, according to most of you but... at least that way, I'd find some peace in knowing wtf's the matter with me, and knowing that I can just slip into my little fantasy world and be happy as I skip merrily along with the SHM at my side.

But anyways. My heart's been a little heavy lately, and this really became clear after I watched FFVII:AC again this morning. And I didn't even have to wait for the ending to nearly start to bawl. I only got to the very beginning, when Marlene's retelling the story of FF7 and they get to the Aerith-death-part... I frickin' lurched with the force of trying to stop myself from tearing. (My female sibling unit can attest to this. She was there.)

And Kadaj... /jeez/.

And also, I'm mad. Mad at myself for being such a fucking 'tard over FF7. Mad at everyone for not taking me and my words seriously. Mad at the adults for pressuring me into making art my career and making me 'broaden my horizons' and not draw just people like I love to do. Mad at the troll-wench for buying me a mother-fucking-prepaid GoPhone even though I've made it explicitly clear I don't want a stupid cell phone and she's expecting ME to get a JOB to pay for the PHONE SHE bought ME that I didn't even WANT in the FIRST PLACE. WHAT?! How does that even make SENSE?!?!

I don't want you to treat me like your daughter, troll-wench! I never will be nor do I want to be her! I want to do things at my own pace.

But NOOOOOOOOOOOOO. Now I gotta babysit some motherfucking brat or find a place that's actually hiring closeby all so I can pay for a phone that I don't want, and that I'm not gonna use.

Seriously, what the hell, troll-wench?

What the hell?

Well, I'm feeling a bit better. A bit. I'm still worried about how... obsessive I've become, though.

And how I don't want to be non-obsessive, only... more so to the point where I'm living the fantasy.
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Life Status

...so... we have.... this week... to clean the house and get our shit together so we can move into the troll-wench's dungeon. Male parental unit said he's going to disassemble the lifebox tomorrow or Tuesday and move it over there.

Dx!! <--Probably one of the only emoticons I will ever use on here.

NO! I can't stand that thought!

Also. I'll probably have to give a family friend a call about baby-sitting her brats.
I just hope it'll be on my terms, because there's no way in hell I'm going to her house with that... that........ hellmutt over there...

To those of you who aren't familiar, I am terrified of dogs. And loathe the little beasts with a passion.

Another thing I hate: Drawing birthday presents only to like the pics too much and end up keeping them... It took me two tries of making troll-wench's daughter a birthday picture before a successful one that I wasn't fond enough of to keep.
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Art Shiznit

I plan on entering a contest being held by one of my favorite artists of all time on dA (endling.deviantart.com).... I'm so... freakin' nervous. It's been such a long time since I OC battled... and you have to audition your char first. (There's only 64 char slots open.) So! I picked Rin. (Out of the top three choices, it was hard to choose between him, Osamu, and Iibara.) I even made a new outfit for him that's different from his usually outfits in that... it's kinda dressy and Asian like him, not hip and American.

Rin is nervous too. He's so optimistic usually, but lately he's extremely pessimistic about his chances of getting in, much less winning. It's been a while for him too.

Wish me luck, poppits.

P.S.: MY GAWD THIS CELL PHONE IS FUCKING LOUD!!!!



~Ruxik
Praise Mother.